Secret Confessions of a Smart Girl

For me, the secret to successful orgasms is a good book.

Oh, in a pinch a good website will do, or some really raunchy content from alt.sex.stories (what are your search keywords? mine are nc and mmf) , but it’s words that are the most important component in my recipe for getting off. If I’m masturbating, no amount of even amazing sensation will give me an orgasm if I can’t engage my brain in the activity, and I frequently have trouble holding onto a fantasy to fulfillment without the presence of visual aids (literal aids? I do not think that means what I think it means.) In contrast, the right story, such as something from Shokushu High School, can get me off with little physical stimulation at all.

Am I weird? This is an honest question. I’m actually rather well educated about the academics of sex and sexuality, but the answer to this question I do not know. I know that, in general, there is more pornography consumption by men, but also that people who masturbate more consume more pornography - regardless of gender. A quick search of the literature suggests that men are more likely to use fantasy as part of masturbation than women, but nothing specifically on my, possibly ADD mediated, use of the written word.

I was thinking about this prior to my afternoon nap and post my afternoon pre-nap orgasm. It made me wonder, what the most important ingredient is in the orgasm recipe - and if it varies between masturbatory orgasms and interactive orgasms. I don’t know if it’s that they’re different for me, or if I just weigh the importance of orgasms differently in different situations. If I’m masturbating, it’s because I want to get off. I want the physical release and relaxation, either because I’m horny or because its better than drugs for helping me fall asleep. On the other hand sex with someone else can be good or even great, with no orgasms anywhere in sight. Not that they’re not nice there as well, but, for me, sex with other people is about the experience and the interaction - not achieving an orgasmic “goal.” Getting off isn’t an intrinsic desire for me in BDSM scenes, either. I just like having the crap beaten out of me… or whatever*.

Are these things that other people think about as well?

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*Here in the privacy of my anonymity I will admit that sometimes when I’m playing casually it’s not about the interaction at all. It’s about experiencing certain types of enjoyable sensations. There has been more than one time when I really could have cared less who was at the other end of a whip, candle, or hand as long as it was delivering enjoyable sensations. It’s certainly more fun to play when I’m playing with someone fun, but sometimes a girl just wants some good no-commitment bruises. Admitting this makes me feel terribly selfish, but it’s the truth.